The end of Bristol and Love
Text Messages
Me: I think its best if we don't interact anymore. I gave you and opportunity to come clean about Jose and you chose not 2. Return all my belongings and I will do the same.
Love: If that's the way you feel....
Me: You could have been honest... I mean I gave you 4 yrs of my life
Love: I didn't want to hurt you
Phone call
Me: What the fuck you mean you didn't want to hurt me. Lying about wanting to go to Miami and not take me and then manipulating me for the past 2 months telling me that I'm paranoid and blowing shit up, when you down there fucking some queen.
Love: I fucked up ok, but don't act like you aint ever cheat on me. Be real Bristol, you know and I know.
Me: What the fuck are you talking about? I have given you so much, looked out for you before I looked out for my myself or anyone else, taken care of your every want and need, sacrificed for you and been there for everything. The same thing you told me last night about the reason you love me and see me in your life forever. It's just that when you talk about me being in your life or you needing to move back to Atlanta, its not to be with me as I had assumed.
Love: I do love you and I do see you being in my life forever, but I just don't know where I am right now.
After this it turns into an hour conversation til like 1 in the morning where we basically revisit every fucked up move each other has made, the feelings that we were going through, the communication that should have occured while we were together that probably could have prevented this.
I admitted what he already knew, which was that I had sex with someone else... oral a little less than a year ago. I explained that it was the feelings I was having and thinking that he was cheating on me since he didn't come home some nights and he had all these random boys in his phone. Love thinks that the blowjob I gave is so much worse that the blowjob he got and ass he fucked, but go figure - that's a man for ya.
I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep all night and boy was I right. Not a drop of sleep at all. Love is coming to Atlanta this weekend to return my things and asked if he could stay at my house. We spoke about it and we agreed that we have somethings in common that we have said throughout our relationship.
- This will be the last relationship for either of us
- The other will always have a place to stay and bed to sleep in no matter what is going on in the other person's life
- We still love each other
I thought about going and hanging out or drinking my night away, but all I did was lay there and cry.
I'm sure this is no condolence for you, but why didn't y'all just try an open relationship, before you put the final nail in the coffin. I mean I hear that works for some gay relationships, especially long distance relationship, if you call Atlanta and Miami long distance.
ReplyDeleteAnyway you gave it a good go, I think close to 4 years a good run, that's like your 15 years in gay years!
They always think your indiscretion is worse than theirs!